Today, the future is frightening
Today, I lost my faith and my dream
Today, I feel terrible
Today, I feel like I want to die
Today, I’ve broken my own vow
That, it is forbidden to look at other people house
That, it is a big no-no to look up
That, it is my promise to appreciate what I have
That, suffering is needed to educate my soul
I know
There are a lot of people out there who have a lot of sorrow
No shelter, friends, confidante, even water and food
I know
I have many things that other people don’t have
I know
Misery is a part of life that can strengthen me inside
But still,
Those feeling captured me
Extremely tired
Empty
Dull
Vain
Gloom
And, the only thing I can do is shout!
Yel out at the top of my voice
In the dark of my heart
Asking for help
Not from you nor anybody
But only You!
Diemen, 04 Mei 2010