Getting older isn’t nice, is it? I’m always happy if someone said that I’m still like a teenager or a student. My heart always flies if my new friends were surprised and said “ What? Do you already have two big children? Are you kidding? You look so young!” I smiled gleefuly when I walked with my children, met with other people and they said,”Are they your nephew and niece?” Or even worse they would said,”Are they your brother and sister?” What? My children? Brother and sister? Oh come on, I’m not that young, they are my children, indeed! Even though I was a bit insulted but there was a pleasant feeling crept, deep in my heart.
Happiness and The ‘Tiger Cage’
My friends have told me, the place that I want to pursue my dream is a very uncomfortable place. Knowing their experiences and hearing what they said, I can imagine how hard it is, to be there, as if I would come in to a tiger cage.
Can you imagine? Someone who wants to be there has to pay thousands or hundreds million rupiahs, but after that she or he has no more time left for their families even for themselves. Even worse, divorce rates, stressed, and depresion increase among the participants!
Lala dan Malik bicara ‘vrijen’ (hubungan suami istri)
Kapan hari sepulang sekolah, Malik, 8 tahun, tiba-tiba nggremeng sendiri sambil nyanyi-nyanyi, ngomong gini,”Ik heb seks met Liane, Ik heb seks met Liane.” What?! Langsung dong telinga ku berdiri dengernya. Waduh, anak gw mulai ngomong-ngomong soal ginian, pasti dari temen-temennya nih, mulai panik dong diriku, kuatir temen-temennya udah meracuni dia yang enggak-enggak. Aku yang ada di lantai dua sampe turun tangga dan mencoba mendengarkan lagi baik-baik takut aku salah denger. Tapi enggak tuh, Malik bener-bener ngomong gitu, dan aku tahu banget, Liane itu satu-satunya temen perempuan sekelas Aik yang dianggap temen sama Aik. Temen perempuan lainnya kata Aik bukan temen, bener-bener cuma Liane seorang. Jadi menurut Aik, temen Aik itu adalah temen laki-laki yang deket sama Aik (ada 10 orang) plus Liane, padahal ada 30 orang anak di kelas Aik.
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Miss You So
I woke up
You were not there
Didn’t know why
There was a pang
There was a frightening
There was a longing
In my heart
Couldn’t imagine
If you and me
have to be apart
I will miss you
I even miss you so
Now.
Diemen, 10 March 2010
When my beloved one, goes for a while.